Sometimes I really miss living at home, being in high school, the friends that I used to have, the simplicity of things. I used to think I had so much to look forward to. I knew that when I graduated I would start the rest of my life. I'd go to college; I'd fall in love; I'd get an awesome job; I'd get married and have kids...
now that I'm past college and have started a career, I realize that being an adult isn't all that it's cracked up to be. There are parts that I, of course, thoroughly appreciate, like living on my own, not being at HBU anymore, not being a confused and hormonal teenager, having Mr. Jones in my life, and much more. Of course things in life get better as even bigger as we get older... and things are always not what we expect.
but now that I'm here, I realize that I don't have it any more together than I did back then. My problems and obstacles are just different.
I still ask the same questions:
who am I?
what do I want to do with myself?
what's important to me?
where am I headed?
And I question what I've done with myself up to this point. I question the people that I choose to spend my time with. Am I living life like I should? Am I living a life that I will be proud of when I am old? Am I too quick to judge, and too narrow minded to live a life unique to me?
Sometimes it's hard to see the point, you know?
